Creativity Jealousy! Yup, It’s Out There.

Another week has gone by, another week of daily creativity. But this week I had trouble being creative on a daily basis. I was sick (still am), and I just wasn’t in the mood if ya know what I mean. Besides, everywhere I turned I saw creative people being creative. My level of creative juices was pretty much on empty this week. I have a twin brother who lives in Colorado. His photography is phenomenal. I see his work and I think to myself, “Why can’t I do that?” I have a sister-in-law who makes beautiful jewelry and I wish I knew how. My daughter-in-law crochets and she, too, is an outstanding photographer (as are both of my daughters! You should see their photos! Beautiful.) Then there is my son, artist extraordinaire. He’s painting fantastic murals on his kids’ walls. Amazing. Did I leave anyone out? Probably. The point is that this week creativity jealousy was not really “out there,” it was “in here.” Sometimes we just aren’t in our groove and it seems that everyone else is. Bleh…

But in reality, I know better. The fact that I write papers for school, or write three blogs, or photograph something everyday, or even figure out how to navigate through life obstacles is evidence of creativity at work. This week I have been guilty of comparing myself to others, usually negatively. Yet, I wasn’t meant to be “others,” I was meant to be “me!”

There is a parable of a person who died and had to stand before the ultimate Creator. This person was remorseful that he was not a spiritual giant like Abraham or Moses, and that he didn’t pray like Miriam or Hannah. G-d replied, “I didn’t create you to be Abraham or Moses or Miriam or Hannah. I created you to be you.”

It is good to remember that our primary creative endeavor is to be our authentic selves.

To see some of what I did this week, check out my NoCZ-2012 blog for today!

21 thoughts on “Creativity Jealousy! Yup, It’s Out There.

  1. Cecelia, my mind has been moving in a similar direction. I’ve been reading short stories by Lee Smith. She’s such a masterful story teller that I ask myself, “Why do I even bother writing?” I persist, not because I think I have a story of importance or cleverness to tell but because I can’t help myself. To resist the urge to create would deaden my spirit.


    1. It must have been the time for this post! Several others have expressed the same sentiments. (By the way, I love your writing!) May we all find our authentic paths through life. I have no doubt that you are navigating your’s!

      Thanks for commenting.

  2. this post popped up in my inbox, as if you’d been reading my mind — I was just thinking along the exact same lines! I had just stopped to ask myself; ยซdo I HAVE to be creative …who says so??ยป, when this came in LOL

    I am what I am — not a very creative person, but I am me, I guess. I take photos too, but then I look at others and most of the time think that they’re much better. One shouldn’t make those kinds of comparisons, I think.

    1. How often that happens to me; I’m thinking about something when a phone call, a blog, an email comes to me that speaks to the very issue. ๐Ÿ˜‰ Would that we all could be happy being our most authentic and true selves. Have a great day.

  3. It is good to remember that our primary creative endeavor is to be our authentic selves.

    Well said, Cecelia. We can’t all be Mother Teresa . . . that was HER job. ๐Ÿ˜‰

  4. Amen, Sister! I have been where you are. I may even be there again later today. It’s hard not to compare. I have been jealous. I sometimes AM Jealousy.

    But, goodness, this gives me a huge insight– I had never connected jealousy to an unwillingness or inability to be my authentic self. I need to think about that.

    Thanks for this creative gift, my friend! Hope you are feeling better.


    1. Thanks Kathy,
      I am feeling better, just having a time of it kicking this virus! Slowly but surely . . .

      Glad the post spoke to you. I did not expect to get the response with this post that has come in! I didn’t know that so many folks could identify with this. Working toward authenticity is the hardest thing in the world for me, and the most rewarding. May we all reach new heights of authenticity!

      Thanks for stopping by. I do appreciate your comments.

      Hugs back,

  5. I believe that exactly this kind of posts will attract most comments. Because it talks about a problem people face and it’s at times not easy to get over. Indeed, our duty here is not to be Michelangelo or David (well, for some it is…), but to be ourselves. Accepting this is a necessary step towards wisdom. Now, who we really are and what we are meant to do, that’s a completely different story…

    1. I couldn’t say it better, so I won’t even try. Thank you for your wise comment. Your last sentence is worth pondering! Another post. ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks for stopping by Sorin.

  6. I know exactly how you feel, Ms. F… been there… still there.
    Although I really have to echo that I am constantly impressed by your creativity… on many, many fronts!

  7. Excellent points Cecelia and that is why I have a quote on my blog sidebar that I never change even though I used to… Check it out when you have a moment. ๐Ÿ™‚

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